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sunday sessions: changing my tune


I’ve pretty much always been a person that didn’t want children. I grew up as an only child, never babysat, and really enjoyed living an adult-oriented life for the majority of my 26 years. Brian and I got married under the agreement that we likely would never be parents, and yet, somehow something has changed.

It’s worth mentioning now that I am in no way, shape or form pregnant. But for the first time in my life, I’m imagining what it might be like to be a mother. I suppose part of that is due to the overload (in a good way!) of pregnant and new-mom friends. Two of my closest girlfriends (including this one) are expecting little girls later this year. Bonnie just announced that she has a little one on the way. My friend and neighbor Shelby has the cutest little boy named Knox I’ve ever met in my life. Babies seem to be everywhere, and I’m really loving it!

I admit, I have so many fears about this new possibility: What if I can’t get pregnant when I want to (or at all)? What if I have the worst pregnancy ever? What if I’m a terrible mother? And while I think those are valid thoughts, I know that fear is a silly reason not to try—motherhood, and anything in life.

Needless to say, It’s been an interesting couple of weeks as Brian and I have talked through this changing tune of mine. And while we’re not sure about timing, we do think that parenthood is something we we want to do someday soon. Suddenly our futures look so different, and in the best way.

Moms: what do you love about being a parent? Non-moms: do you think you’ll ever have kids?

Image by Sharon Montrose via A CUP OF JO

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    Victoria B
    August 12, 2014 at 7:12 am

    I know this post is really old, but I have been going through some of your archives and I just feel like this type of post is on my heart and mind lately.
    I vividly remember in high school telling my friends in Art class that I wasn’t sure I wanted to have children. I don’ t think they meant to, but I felt attacked. I never told anybody that again. But I was 14 years old, had never even met a baby, and was definitely not sure what I wanted out of life.
    I did quickly change my tune after I reached college. I knew that what I really wanted was a life like my mom’s. I wanted a husband and children.
    Now, I’m 29 and married 1.5 years to the greatest man and most of my friends have kids already, some two or three. The woman I want to be is most definitely a mom and I can see 2-3 kids and a dog in my future. But I just don’t know when I want to get started! I am so content with my life right now and I am not really a baby/kid person. I am just trying to trust that the Lord will guide me to the right time.

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